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Jealousy.



I'm a person who gets jealous easily and gets jealous form the silliest things. Not many people know that. I don't get jealous because someone has something that I don't, I always get what I want you know. ;p It's just that I'm always afraid of losing my friends to someone else, so I get jealous when they have new friends. +_+ What a…! I know. It's just that I've lost so many friends in my life time (ha-ha 'in my life time, as if I'm 40 or something =p) and I don’t want to lose anyone else, especially the friends I have now, they're irreplaceable. So whenever my friend starts talking to another person, let's say someone in a freaking forum, I get jealous. You can figure out that I'm very narrow minded. Plus, I have this weird habit. I make up this little story in my head and end up believing it xD and loving or hating people for no freaking reason. This is definitely weird. Let me tell you something, with my friends, I always show the opposite, like if I really do care about them, I show that I don't. And act as if I hate them, but in reality I love them. :p But not all the time 3ad.


I think that I prefer online friends than real life (school) friends. It's just because I don't see online friends face-to-face so I can tell them anything, it's easier. I have a problem with my 'real' friends; I can't look them in the eye. Yup, I can't :S and I SO hate if someone said "A7is" or "I feel" Akh it makes me feel awkward. I immediately change the subject if a friend said those words, that's why if I wasn't feeling well; I only talk to online friends. :p